Sometimes You Feel Like a Butt, Sometimes You Don’t

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Photo courtesy of Fail Dogs.

I walked out of my office last week and saw newly planted pansies bobbing in the sunshine and nearly started crying. Today I heard “Lucky Man” on the radio by Montgomery Gentry and did start crying. Boy am I embarrassed to admit that. And no, I’m not pregnant.

The hubby and I have a date night tonight while the girls spend the night with his parents and it couldn’t be better timing. I’ve been in an intermittent funk all winter and have had a hard time shaking it. What better way to celebrate the first day of spring with a date, even if it’s going down to 37 degrees tonight?

This George Michael song pretty much sums up how I feel right now about going out tonight.

I don’t know if it’s because I’ll be 40 next summer, but I feel caught in an odd transitional place in life, somewhere between not being quite middle-aged, yet definitely not in my 20s any more, somewhere between feeling like I should be incredibly thankful for what I have in my life, yet restless and wanting some sort of change, somewhere between being in awe of seeing my children grow up but not wanting them to do it quite so fast. I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I’m in denial about the fact that I really need reading glasses, in addition to my contacts. Damn you presbyopia! I do know I have so much to be thankful for, but sometimes that just doesn’t seem to be enough and I am ashamed to admit that.

It’s time for me to shed this winter funk. The sun is shining, there’s not a cloud in the sky, I have two adorable little girls, an understanding husband who is an awesome cook who works like crazy, and I have my swank new purse.

I know some of my blog friends are going through post-winter blues. Maybe it’s in the air?

p.s. Because I am a wealth of information, and also because I get depressed when I read about new TV shows featuring characters my age with teenage children (OK so I had my first child at nearly 33, that’s not that old), did you know there is talk of a Beverly Hills 90210 spinoff?

And also, because I just found Shamelessly Sassy and to coordinate with the butt title of this post, you have to check out this bizarre medical story she blogged about.

15 comments

  1. Bluegrass Mama says:

    The hubby and I were just sitting out on the porch soaking up some of that springtime bliss. If this were September, we’d have been freezing!

    I’m about to turn 50, which isn’t really fazing me. I actually loved turning 40–I think I finally felt like a grown-up then.

    Hope you come out of that winter funk soon!

    Bluegrass Mama’s last blog post..Easter By the Numbers

  2. DBN says:

    Sorry about the winter funk. I know that skitchy feeling. Ick!

    I feel really sorry for the dog on the bottom. That HAS to smell.

    DBN’s last blog post..Dorking out.

  3. Blonde Mom says:

    Well ladies hubby and I went to dinner at our favorite outdoor restaurant at the boat dock and I had two margaritas and I already feel a thousand times BETTER! 😉

  4. Amy says:

    I have the same seasonal issues and I am so ready for some of that sunshine to come over to the Midwest. I also find myself in an in-between spot and trying to figure out what the heck to do next.

    I just can’t wait to see ya again and can’t wait to hang out! I think a cocktail and a girl’s getaway will be just what the doctor ordered 🙂

    HUGS!!

  5. Blonde Mom says:

    Amy:

    I can’t wait to see you! Yes, a getaway will be awesome.

    I definitely think I have some seasonal depression issues and it seemed to be really bad this winter.

    I am also burned out at work (my 7th anniversary is in May). But I wouldn’t trade the flexibility I have at work for anything. Just trying to figure out what I want “to do next.”

    Any way, we had a wonderful time last night and the girls are having a blast with the grandparents. Yea.

  6. Lisa says:

    If it helps, I’m in the funk too….a multitude of reasons, but the weather sure isn’t helping. However, talking about a Beverly Hills spin off got me all pumped. I’m humming the theme song as I type. Can you imagine Donna & Kelly as mothers???

    Lisa’s last blog post..Magical

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