2007: The Year I Try To Grow Some Cajones

This year is one of many milestones. Our 10th wedding anniversary is this spring. My 20-year high school reunion is this summer. Caitlin starts kindergarten in August. And I am realizing even more that in a little less than three years I’ll be the big four zero, as in 40. I’m at an interesting crossroads in my life. (Interesting to me any way…this blog is nothing but the self-centered ramblings of a 30-something-year-old mother, is it not?)

I’m done with the college thing. I’m done with the snagging a first apartment in the “cool” part of town thing (which, by the way, was kind of a dump but it was close to all the trendy bars in Hillsboro Village). I’m done with the decorating with hand me down furniture and framed art posters and working two jobs because my first job out of college, although a great one, paid beans thing. I’m done with the just got married thing and the first condo thing and the refinancing our mortgage on our first house thing. I’m done with the baby registries thing and the pregnancy thing and the breastfeeding thing. So, what am I up to now? How do I want to define my life now? There are a lot of things I’d like to focus on this year and my New Year’s resolutions all probably sound very similar to yours, if you’re a married mom in her late 30s living in suburbia, driving an SUV, cleaning dried yogurt from her kitchen chairs just one too many times and praising the inventor of the Swiffer.

I want to ride the mountain bike I got for my birthday last year. And I’d love to go biking with my husband. I want to steer clear of my laptop at night (yes my husband is chuckling right about now). I want to get away with the hubby more, sans children. I want to spend less time stressing out and more time reflecting inward. I want to buy and actually drink “the good wine.” I want to have a fun-filled summer with Caitlin as this is her last summer before she starts the big wide world of real school. I want to enjoy this last bit of toddlerhood with Amelia. I want to pay more attention to our dogs, who admittedly have gotten the short end of my mothering stick the past few years. I want to think outside my rigid restaurant menu customs and order something besides the southwestern eggrolls at Chili’s. I want to stop being such a wimp and worrying what other people think about things like the fact that I just used the word cajones on the Internet.

This is also the year we’ll be potty training Amelia, so in between exclaiming “Yea Amelia go potty!” and “Go Amelia, it’s your potty, we’re gonna party, cuz you can potty,” I’ll be focusing on growing some cajones, because Lord knows we have enough estrogen around here.

Pssst…my nominee for best 2007 resolution type post title goes to Jay Allen at The Zero Boss for “My New Years Resolution: To Make 2007 My BITCH” (heh heh.)

6 comments

  1. Nancy says:

    Holy cow, I think we are twins. We just celebrated our 10 year anniversary in October, my 20 year reunion from high school is this year, Mimi starts kindergarten in the fall, and I am 3 years short of 40.

    And I have the same sort of feelings about “what should I do now?” It’s funny, for so long you look ahead to those milestones… can’t wait to go to college, can’t wait to turn 21, can’t wait to get my own apartment, to have a job, to get engaged, get married, get a house, have one child, have two… then when you’ve done all that, what do you do???

    I think your resolutions sound divine. I like the way you think, my friend. I just might have to come up with some ideas of my own. 🙂

  2. Amanda says:

    I love Chili’s Southwestern eggrolls!!! I hear ya!! I will be 30 in 3 months. Want to come to MD and Party?!!!

    Your doing a fine job Blondie!!

  3. Paige says:

    I do feel like I am always looking forward to what’s going to happen next. Your daughter is looking forward to the next holiday and I think grownups do the same thing too! Not with holidays though. Bigger events. We tend to map everything out in our minds and when one thing comes to an end like having a baby or buying a house -we think “ok what next?” Good for you for focusing on now!

  4. Pattie says:

    I so hear you on this one, Jamie. Truly. I hit 40 last June and I can tell you, I felt as you do now. The college, house, marriage, baby thing is over. Kids in school….what to do, what to do….
    For the first time in a while you are going to be able to focus inward…at least a little more than you have in quite some time. And you know what? That is a good thing. It can be scary, too. I say embrace your passions! Ride that bike, Take those vacations sans kids…drink great wine. Go for it!

  5. john h says:

    “I want to stop being such a wimp and worrying what other people think about things like the fact that I just used the word cajones on the Internet.”

    hey…when you figure this one out, please offer lessons.

    here’s to making 2007 your BI-ATCH!

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